| Svādhyāya is a compound Sanskrit word composed of sva (स्व) + adhyāya (अध्याय). Adhyāya means “a lesson, lecture, chapter; reading”. Svā means “own, one’s own, self, the human soul”. Therefore, Svādhyāya literally means “one’s own reading, lesson”. I have been moving through a lot of “self study” lately and the universe has put this word in front of me so many times in the last few days. So I thought I could share a bit about my own “readings and lessons” in my life. I struggle with the Lesson of how much I should or should not insert myself in my moms life? At 91 she has been on her own for 53 years, how much does she need me? Am I inserting myself through guilt or actual need? I am so thankful for those around her who can translate for me!! She does not often tell me everything, so I depend on others to help me decipher what is really going on there. This is my Lesson, that I do not have to know it all, I just have to be open to the outcome of the Lesson. The recent loss of my ex-brother in law, I found myself actually “reading” a situation and asking what was really needed of me. I wanted to support my niece, but did not want to insert myself in a situation that may not have needed me. My niece and I spoke and what was to be a “celebration” of his life was really about his siblings. I had to heed the voice in my head to “fix” it so that the whole family could come together, but that is not what was needed. She had it under control, she felt good that he was not suffering anymore and that he had found his way to God. It was a good place. When I get out of my head and let the teachings of Yoga flow from me, there is no self doubt, there is no imposter syndrome. I heed what the Sutras tell me Sutra 2.46 – “sthira-sukham asanam”. to find the balance between effort and ease, my teachings come from the heart and my teachers before me and I can believe in myself. What does Svādhyāya tell you? Love and Light, JennyO |
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